She gonna be crazy

yap, this is like what i talk before.
what the hell today..!
ahe take a seat beside him for an hour! godness :(
why she so cruel to me if she know that i adore him, then why she get closer to him?
:(
if i always have a best friend like her, do i should havnt a best friend forever,
did someone who know and get closer to your crush is a best friend?
did someone who always holding his hand when i'm not thewe can called best friend?

i dont know what to do now. .
inside, i always tought that he is nothing for me..
but surely, i cant let he goto someone else.
i dont know what to do now :(