a letter for you

Dear boy,
i dont know what do you think about me.
even tough i seems like i hate you but inside i'm not.
i'm just too scared of losing you.

boy, i'd rather having you as my bestfriend. but i cant lie,
i'm in love with you.
but i wont having you as a boyfriend. cause i'm to scared for losing you.
and we're broke up.

boy, this is my first time i can being like this. with a ridicolous reason.

boy, everyday my heart cant lie that i want you.
did you know what i feel inside when i look at you? there was a sparks fly.
but all of this dissapear.
when i know that my bestfriend want you.
i dont even tough regret about my plan.
but i set a work to move on from you.
i want to know how to stay without you even tough i know i cant.

i wont you far from me.
i wont you fell from somebody else,
i'm not what you want, i know it.
i'm not beautiful like my bestfriend. but inside i'm me, and i have my own way to loving someone like you.
i want you care of me.

dear boy..
if this is my last letter
my last tears.
i want you read this and realize that you're special for me.
you're my whole life.

sincerely,
hopelessly devoted to you